Drugs of ideology

7th day on hunger strike. Time to talk about drugs. Now I’m writing about the drugs which doesn’t leave permanent damage.

Three weeks ago I was unnaturally negative for two days. That was the first time and so far and hopefully the last time of that drug.

Chemically made emotions are easy to recognize. And there are huge amount of drugs to cut people from their emotions or to make artificial emotions for them.

People can also be made to be very passive for several months and loose their ability to progress almost anything. Or to loose emotions or their sexual desire for days or much longer time.

People can also be made to be awfully horny. After that dose is not possible to do anything else than cry desperately in the corner. Recovering fully from the despair and muscle twinkles takes several days from me.

Combination of that drug and angry drug starts to be emotionally very challenging and that’s not the time to socialize but just try to deal it through. The same is that I should not write when fed with the angry drug.

I have been comatosed multiply times. That many times that I cannot guess the number.

I have been ‘medicated’ for many scams, for example because of the ‘traumas’ that people are reflecting that they have made to the victims. – To repeat and keep again the hierarchy and system they have created.

I have also been ‘medicated’ many times because of withdrawals of wrongly decided patients. What to say anymore: Victims cannot have withdrawals for several years. It just doesn’t make sense.

People can also be drugged to give either too positive or too negative responses. With very low doses it takes time to notice that ownself is being drugged. There could be times when I haven’t noticed it at all even after.

One thing that I’m very, very, very worried about is the development of an ‘angry drug’. I’ll write about that next time.


Hunger Strike, day 1

I had horrible chemical complications last night. And I’m having ‘hang over’ and weakness of right side now.

I have recently been fed almost everyday with chemicals that no one should be fed with.

Time to stop eating.

People know what I urge.


Challenge of challenging hierarchy

It’s not easy to challenge hierarchy.  There is a phrase in Finnish language: “Saavutetuista eduista ei voi luopua.” – Man cannot let go from the benefits achieved, could be a clumsy translation for it. I think that the similar mechanisms are partly behind the “Lftv-sydrome“, the good doer -thinking and the deaths. The repetition of hierarchy.

During the years I noticed that if hierarchy is challenged rapidly from down to up the risk of violence, rising control and pointing out the hierarchy is crowing rapidly too. It’s not just toward the victims it’s also toward each others among people in the ideology.

So if I would, from my part, challenge hierarchy too fast I wouldn’t compromise just myself but the other’s future too, also doers. If I wouldn’t challenge hierarchy at all I would do the same. I have needed to compromise myself to not to compromise myself (and the others).

Only hierarchy I can reasonable safely challenge is my own. It has been a good lesson to learn. I can try to have an impact to the reasons why I’m put lower or higher in the hierarchy and try to do it in a way which would develop everyone’s rights.

If the hierarchy is challenged from up to down, from middle to downward or from middle to middle, the challengers hardly ever are ready to challenge deeply their own position in the hierarchy but more the other’s. It doesn’t often change much – or causes similar effects than challenging from down to up.

Humans, including me, hardly ever challenge deeply their own position in the hierarchy, but sometimes we do. And that small ‘yes’ part has saved a lot. Most of all it has saved human lifes. There has been plenty of people who has been able to start to put step by step under the question their own doings or nondoings.

Sometimes the ‘good power’ ends up to be… just power. And noticing  any kind of rising power, especially when part of it, is the tricky question. And to do it early enough before the processes has gone step by step so far that people don’t know how to turn it anymore.

I’m now in the countries where people have seen what happens when hierarchy between people is raised or when people are turned against each others. They might carry inside a knowledge which could be helpful in the situation and in the future.

Based on what I have seen, I would continuously choose the several nonviolent paths, even it needs constant creativity from people. The other paths are going to the direction which I cannot see bringing true solutions.

Especially when I know that there are person(s) who are trying to get people to end up to choose violent solutions in the name of goodness or defending ‘weak ones’ (hierarchy) or anything other and the true intentions are very different.

Don’t kill. Don’t drug. What ever is the narrative. Use brains, other’s too. Control should be controlled, but in controlled ways and with smaller amount of control. And by evaluating control and controlms from very many perceptive. Also from yours, I think. And also the control I’m representing, knowingly or unknowingly.


I urge:
1. Physical (also neurophysical) self-determination for everyone used by the ideology: concrete solution.
2. A clear and simple procedure and tools to deny and report, for people asked to drug people.
3. Forbid drugging

Difference between responsibility and power

I think that mixing responsibility and power is common. For me makes a little easier to recognize power and responsibility early enough by making the definitions more simply: Responsibility is toward ownself and own actions and power is toward the others and/or resources.

In that way thinking adults don’t use responsibility toward their children, they use power toward the children and carry responsibility from the ways they are doing it or are not doing it.

In that way thinking we actually cannot “be responsible about the others” but we can be responsible about our own actions in the ‘big picture’ and toward the others.

I think that there is not good power or bad power, just power. Power can be used only to decrease the amount of power. Developed adults reduce their power at the same time when kid’s self-control and/or surrounding develops and they don’t need to use power to prevent other powers, as boiling water kettle, freezing weather or violent neighbor or family member.

That how power should always move toward equality.

Part of responsibility is also questioning ownself every now and then: Toward what to ‘use’ power and why and in which kind of way. That is developing self-control which (hopefully) goes on through the life time.

Responsibility should always be bigger than power. Why not the same size? Because of the human mind. We just have a habit to get more or less blind to the power and, for example, start to explain power with terms of responsibility – or start to believe in that kind of terminology.

Or at least I have, as can be seen.


I urge:
1. Physical (also neurophysical) self-determination for everyone used by the ideology: concrete solution.
2. A clear and simple procedure and tools to deny and report, for people asked to drug people.
3. Forbid drugging

About norms

Two years ago was trending to ask from victims to beg something concrete for their freedom. One of several things I started to asked was to have involved to the situation specialists who are aware about crimes, psychopathy and brain washing.

I didn’t get that. Instead people solved the problem by making manipulation and drugging toward me to be a normal thing.

People seems to get used to the idea of manipulation and increasing manipulation. People have made a norm to take randomly people to their use and they don’t seem to see anything wrong in their doings. That worries me. People also seem to explain their doings so many ways. Narratives, true and claimed ones, changes but the direction stays.

Sometimes the processes which have created to serve people’s well-being, or processes that people have thought that have created for people’s well-being, are in the end serving other kind of purposes.

People have an impact to the norms with every action they personally do. And norms create ‘rules’. And people, everyone of us, have habit to repeat ‘rules’, written or unwritten, and sometimes actions goes far beyond from most of the people’s original aims and wishes. That explains partly also a lot of wars and economical abuse.

What is good is, that systems created by people can be changed by people.

I think that education, even very very important, wouldn’t be the key number one, at least not by focusing mostly on external matters but internal matters. To be critical toward surrounding and society is good and essential but I think that even more important is to be critical toward own actions. Firstly looking at yourself and which kind of norms you are creating with your own actions and for which kind of actions you are used, as we all eventually are.


I urge:
1. Physical (also neurophysical) self-determination for everyone used by the ideology: concrete solution.
2. A clear and simple procedure and tools to deny and report, for people asked to drug people.
3. Forbid drugging

About the middle way solutions

One of the several reasons why I’m so strict about the nonviolence solutions is that there are people who, when they are drugging people, are truly thinking that they are, for example, ‘good doers’ or secretly medicating ‘sick people’.

Often they are instructed not to tell to the ‘sick people’ or their lawyers about the sickness or medication. The reason given for the silence is the sick people’s sickness that should be hidden from the sick people because of their sickness. Other given reason is often the good doers goodness for the world and the ideology.

I hope people would be very cautious if they start to think themselves as good doers or that they would be part of happiness system or ‘fixing others’ system. That kind of ideas should always awake alarms. Even when people’s own intentions would be very sincere or innocence.

Instead of “good” or “bad” I would ask people to focus to the amount of control (or control-less) and hierarchy inside their doings. And what they actually do as actions, and does it in the end fit to the idea what do they want to increase in the world and done also to themselves.

I would be especially cautious with physical control in any system, specially when it is wrapped with all the beautiful ideas and goodness. It’s not an accident that I’m repeatingly ending up to be drugged – even people have many times realised that drugging me has been based on a scam and wrong decisions. Not everyone in this game is a ‘good guy’.

Let’s say this more directly: Not just that I’m repeatingly ending to be drugged but that people are repeatingly ending up to drug the others as a part of their solution for their system. Behind that there are games and hierarchy which I personally wouldn’t support in any possible situation.

When people compromise the ‘middle way’ solution to be in the middle of the other people’s squares, it’s not truly a middle way. Thinking, where people would put the middle way when the solution would be concretely in their own personal square, makes easier to evaluate the decisions and the causes – which kind of rules people are creating for the world where they are living in.

For myself is easier to think compromises and the causes by thinking what is the median I’m causing to the others with the compromises I do. Then thinking myself below the median, or even better, trading myself below the median and then trying to move the median itself with my own actions.

If and when I’m ready to see the true median and below. Sometimes is too easy to trick ownself to stay more comfortable.


I urge:
1. Physical (also neurophysical) self-determination for everyone used by the ideology: concrete solution.
2. A clear and simple procedure and tools to deny and report, for people asked to drug people.
3. Forbid drugging

Hunger Strike, day 6 – Fail and revealing The Solution

I was planning to write today how I’m preparing tomorrows feast. I got fever yesterday and through the night. Fever got down by now but I decided to eat today. Juice and oats for lunch and evening potato, left over from fridge. It’s quite an amount after having five days just water.

During the strike the appreciation toward food rises. All the flavours are more tasty, also old vegetables are very precious and it would feel waste to eat fast, feels good to focus to every moment of taste. Also repairing a few bites to eat turns to be almost a ritual. After twenty days full strike effect was more strong than now but still food has a different value now.

And of course this all means that the hunger strike and self control is failing now already on 6th day. I know that I need to start the strike again. People haven’t solve the system they have made to control people and their rights, others of course, neither how to leave out people who don’t want to be part of their doings nor ideology. I hate hunger striking but this needs to be solved, especially the drugging – for my health and for other used (currently and in the future) health and future.

I think it would be good to make a research in the network how many of people in the ideology would truly accept that others would start to take their whole life and environment to use for years without their permission, start to sell them and start to drug them if they wouldn’t be how is wanted – or by the manipulation. Not everyone in this system is a “good guy”. And people change in the network.

There could be people who would want to be used, I believe, but from my part I can say that I’m not. I prefer equality. My life has been four years of lies, abuse and violence. I live, which is good, but without possibility to have a home, to travel, to eat, to have personal relationships, any unmanipulated conversations or rights to my own body or self-determination. I’m cutted out from society and from my own life. Even the situation is better than two or one years ago, which is generally a good thing.

There has been also good sides during these years but the realities of used people’s rights should be said aloud and also the fact that the system is about increasing inequality, hierarchy and control step by step. And it should be possible to be said aloud without rising violence. I thank you people who are working for that all the time. I appreciate it a lot.

There would be one very simple solution for people’s needs to have other people as their projects. To ask. To ask honestly and directly from the people that other people think to take for they use and give for used people also a possibility to jump out when using people are loosing their own control (they always do, that’s a nature of human mind and hierarchy) and eventually start, for example, to drug or use any other forms of extreme control.

I personally would end the whole human experiment program and offer people other possibilities and tools than other human beings, when realistic.


Hunger Strike, day 3

The beginning of the hunger strike is the hardest. I would so much feel to eat. All the smells are more strong. Brains have not yet switched off the feelings of hunger. I don’t like this. But even less I would like to eat drugged food.

I thank you all working behind the fact that nowadays is more possible to stand for people’s rights and that the situation with extreme control and amount of chemicals has been started to develop to downward. It has been possible to see the actual results of the development.

But it hasn’t been stopped and now the direction seems to be changed again. And I don’t tolerate a grow of a physical violence at all. Especially not in nowadays world and not in any reality. The fences between two artificial world are not high. Neither I accept any of those chemicals that has been fed to me nor the games played behind the drugs. I prefer malnourishment.

In this situation better to say aloud to everyone that I support my current owner from the choices of life I have. He has ears every now and then. That’s a bit of hope for equality or for life. People don’t have permission to sell me further now.

Back to the basics. Self-determination. Own body. Own square. Drugging = Violence.


I urge:
1. Physical (also neurophysical) self-determination for everyone used by the ideology: concrete solution.
2. A clear and simple procedure and tools to deny and report, for people asked to drug people.
3. Forbid drugging

Open letter to Denis

Would you let me to take our environment to my use? Would you let me to rule every people around you? Would you let me to feed you with chemicals? Would you let me to drug you? Would you let me to make you life as a TV show? Would you?

I’m asking: Would you?

How about would you let a person you don’t know to do that? Because that’s what you are for me, a stranger. You have had a possibility to collect data about me, you have had a possibility follow every movement I make, every word I speak, every twitch of my eyes when the others speak, collect every detail about me. I haven’t had that possibility about you.

Would you call this equality? Would you?

What is trust? Trust is ability to be naked front of the others. Trust is to be vulnerable front of the others. Trust is to be small, sad and wounded and still not be afraid and still not hide.

Would you do that front of me?

The last four years and everyday of my current live has been a life that I would not hope for anyone. And that won’t change by teaching me to trust or by teaching me to love or be loved.


Hidden control is more control, not less control, because it includes also control of knowledge.

I have written about the principle of the smaller control. This is how it goes so far:

  • Control should be addressed only toward control.
  • If equality is not truly possible then the bigger control can be replaced with the smaller control – if it leads toward down-warding control. Replacer is controller and should be controlled – with smaller amount of control.
  • Too less control doesn’t decrease amount of control. But the smallest possible amount of control or the most accurate finding of control in chains of control and controlms gives the ‘biggest’ possible result for decreasing control.
  • Hidden control is more control, not less control, because it includes also control of knowledge.
  • Manipulative control is more control, not less control, because it includes also control of knowledge.
  • Drugging and any other physical violence is extreme control and makes people to be controllers, extreme controllers. Replacing extreme control with another type of control or less amount of control makes people to be extreme controllers or controllers.
  • Forms of control should be changed, moved, made more visible and/or questioned frequently because people get used to the forms of control. Control that cannot be recognized/chosen is more control because it doesn’t include freedom of choice.
  • Amount of freedom (freedoms to / freedoms from / freedoms in) cannot be increased by controlling freedoms or people who are wanted to be more free for freedoms to, freedoms from or freedoms in. Amount of freedom can be increased by controlling control or controlms.